I wonder on a daily basis if I am in over my head when it comes to parenting. My older son’s third birthday has somehow turned him into a seventeen year old, complete with raging hormones and omniscience. My younger son is only six months old, but seems to believe that he can do everything that his brother can. Every time he fails to walk or speak in full sentences he seems astonished at what he could not accomplish. In the middle of this, I like to think that my wife and I do an excellent job but there are times each day when I worry that I am ruining my children’s lives with my incompetence. Read the rest of this entry »
Spinning through vastness
You’re all that matters
Kids destroyed the house
Race cars, monster trucks and trains
Beware sharp Legos
Grass blade pierces soil
Skeletal grasp of winter
Falls away in sun
In the past I was an incredibly careless young man.
Showing wanton disregard for my own well being – physically, financially, emotionally. Read the rest of this entry »
Dawn is breaking
pale gray light spilling over the horizon
toward the shame of what I have done.
Hidden by the darkness
I had felt invincible
omnipotent tyrant of the night.
In the faint glow of the sun
my face is gaunt
my body slack and weary.
Justice will come
but for a time I will flee to the shadows
seeking solace in the remains of the twilight hour.
Creation and destruction
Divine inspiration piecing together the
fragmented bits of the universe.
As the damned pull apart the foundations
shrieking their venomous hatred.
The creating requires
equal parts inspiration, dedication, concentration.
While destructors only need possess
strength and cunning.
The entropy remains a half step ahead
It has been about six months since I posted anything. Actually it has been about six months since I have written anything.
I’m hoping to start back up again now, although for different reasons.
When I started my blog I had just completed my bachelor’s degree. Since I had studied journalism, I thought that I had to “do something” with my degree, whatever that is supposed to mean. I immediately started writing and trying to figure out ways to make some money through writing.
This led me to writing for content mills, submitting to magazines, writing for a sports blog…and so on. All of this tedium in the name of not wasting my education. To be honest, at this point I wish that I had not gone to college.
Don’t get me wrong, I got plenty out of my college experiences and classwork, but the cost outweighed the benefits exponentially. Now that I realize I will be strapped with crippling student loan debt for the rest of my life, I can admit to myself that I should have had a plan to start.
All of that aside, I do plan to continue writing. Maybe I will never make another dollar from it, that is no longer relevant to me. I have a job that, God willing, I will work until I retire and a beautiful family and those things are more than enough.
I don’t know if this is even something that merits publishing as it turns out I am mostly writing to myself, but I don’t see the point in deleting it either.
The original point of this post was that I plan to start my blog over again, minus the clutter of sports articles and self promotion. If you like what you see, I welcome you to read on.
Each instance of social injustice
Sparks the self-righteous machine of the anarchists
A cavalcade of do-nothing, bandwagon crusaders.
I loathe your comments voicing disdain for my country.
Continue to spew torrents of vicious words on your peers
What mask do you choose to hide your ugliness?
Activist, politician, clergy
No one is fooled
Spreading discord worries at fresh wounds,
Creates a self-sustaining crisis
But that won’t stop you
Where have the true leaders gone?