Trying To Get It Right

I wonder on a daily basis if I am in over my head when it comes to parenting. My older son’s third birthday has somehow turned him into a seventeen year old, complete with raging hormones and omniscience. My younger son is only six months old, but seems to believe that he can do everything that his brother can. Every time he fails to walk or speak in full sentences he seems astonished at what he could not accomplish. In the middle of this, I like to think that my wife and I do an excellent job but there are times each day when I worry that I am ruining my children’s lives with my incompetence.

Eyeblink

Spinning through vastness

Infinitely meaningless

You’re all that matters

Monday With Kids

Kids destroyed the house

Race cars, monster trucks and trains

Beware sharp Legos

Spring Haiku

Grass blade pierces soil

Skeletal grasp of winter

Falls away in sun

Turn Of The Wheel

In the past I was an incredibly careless young man.

Photo by barbarabuchholz (photobucket)

Showing wanton disregard for my own well being – physically, financially, emotionally.

Dread the Consequence

Dawn is breaking

pale gray light spilling over the horizon

toward the shame of what I have done.

Hidden by the darkness

I had felt invincible

omnipotent tyrant of the night.

In the faint glow of the sun

my face is gaunt

my body slack and weary.

Justice will come

but for a time I will flee to the shadows

seeking solace in the remains of the twilight hour.

Decay

Creation and destruction

Divine inspiration piecing together the

fragmented bits of the universe.

As the damned pull apart the foundations

shrieking their venomous hatred.

The creating requires

equal parts inspiration, dedication, concentration.

While destructors only need possess

strength and cunning.

The entropy remains a half step ahead

Back From Vacation?

It has been about six months since I posted anything. Actually it has been about six months since I have written anything.

I’m hoping to start back up again now, although for different reasons.

When I started my blog I had just completed my bachelor’s degree. Since I had studied journalism, I thought that I had to “do something” with my degree, whatever that is supposed to mean. I immediately started writing and trying to figure out ways to make some money through writing.

This led me to writing for content mills, submitting to magazines, writing for a sports blog…and so on. All of this tedium in the name of not wasting my education. To be honest, at this point I wish that I had not gone to college.

Don’t get me wrong, I got plenty out of my college experiences and classwork, but the cost outweighed the benefits exponentially. Now that I realize I will be strapped with crippling student loan debt for the rest of my life, I can admit to myself that I should have had a plan to start.

All of that aside, I do plan to continue writing. Maybe I will never make another dollar from it, that is no longer relevant to me. I have a job that, God willing, I will work until I retire and a beautiful family and those things are more than enough.

I don’t know if this is even something that merits publishing as it turns out I am mostly writing to myself, but I don’t see the point in deleting it either.

The original point of this post was that I plan to start my blog over again, minus the clutter of sports articles and self promotion. If you like what you see, I welcome you to read on.

Song Of The Day

I haven’t heard this song in a bit, but it’s one of my favorites.

 

Stumbling Blindfolded

Each instance of social injustice

Sparks the self-righteous machine of the anarchists

A cavalcade of do-nothing, bandwagon crusaders.

I loathe your comments voicing disdain for my country.

Continue to spew torrents of vicious words on your peers

Hypocrite

What mask do you choose to hide your ugliness?

Activist, politician, clergy

No one is fooled

Spreading discord worries at fresh wounds,

Creates a self-sustaining crisis

But that won’t stop you

 

Where have the true leaders gone?